Wednesday, January 16, 2013

to blog or not to blog

that is the real question.
Who has time?
I watch 2 extra boys every day and my moms house it BIG and a lot to deal with.
I will blog.
I promise.
As soon as I get my pictures off my phone I will post them here.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

huh? I didnt know!

So I was trying to figure out the password to our netflix account. the boys wanna watch but for some reason I could'nt remember...
side note: please forgive any and all misspellings, I am used to my iphone and it auto corrects, which is not always a good thing.
I havent been on the computer in so long, I have to look at the key board to type.
lol Sad I know. (sorry, I type like I talk)
I finally figured out my password thing and checked my email, then off to oh yeah....my blog!!!!
I hang my head in shame. I know I promised I would try to blog.
I decided to read up on some friends, I guess most of my friends dont have time to blog either or share too much on facebook to warrent a blog post.
My friend, lets call her Annie. She BLOGGED FROM HER IPHONE!!!!!!!
I didnt know you could do that!!!!
I am going to figure this out. You may be hearing from me...more.
As for my life, yes, I am still the mother of 6, 7 if you count the big kid aka hubster, as one of them.
 Its kinda funny, when we first married, I was the slob, (no, it was bad), but he has changed his ways. it's like we swapped rolls. He isnt as...tidy... as he used to be. He does get in some anal cleaning binges, and I dont complain. (I am not that stupid.)
Like last Wednesday for instance, I was in the ER and hooked up to IV for antibiotis and pain meds for severe strep throat.
What did I get to do on Friday.....yep, clean my room.
Jeff just started cleaning, I cant just lay in my bed and watch.
I am almost recovered, but the family has caught on and we missed church, all the boys have mssed a day or 2 and my lou bean missed, including today, 4 days of school. She just started last tuesday!!!!! If only the fever would stop and never come back. Now she has a cough!? WTHeck?
my #2 son is home sick too.
Yes, school started, I have a freshmanin highschool, a junior in highschool, a 6th grader, 4th grader, and one in kindergarten. and then one home with me.
huh, I didnt know that I would hate the end of summer and love it all at the same time.
There has been a change in this house, a shift, if you will, this summer was long, boring yet eventful.
The change came from me, I actually saw the #1, #2, and #3 boys as teenagers and not my babies anymore. Dont get me wrong, they will forever be my babies, but they are not the little boys in my eyes anymore.
I have to start teaching the#1 to DRIVE!!!!!
I didn't really realize how scary it is.
To even picture him driving with out me, with all those stupid people driving around.
It hurts my heart.
I am so very sorry mom and dad for scaring you like that. I see it now.
I am so very, very sorry.
and thank you.
 Summer is over, school is in session, I am gonna figure this whole thing out for my iphone.
oh yeah, lou bean broke her arm 6 weeks ago and she got her cast off yesterday. She was standing on the back of the couch, looking out a window at a birds nest and went straight through the screen and out the window. She only went 4 feet onto some bushes. The hero of the day and summer, is my #3 boy. She saw that she had fallen through the window and heard my screaming and didnt even think about it. He ran up to the couch and jumped straight out the window to get her. My hero!!!!!
(yes going out the door would have worked too, but we have issues with our door handle and we couldnt find it. Dont laugh too hard, it has saved us from 2 little 2 year olds sneaking  out the front door).
I have a great bunch of boys.
*deep sigh*

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Miracles do happen

I belie what you are witnessing is a miracle.
I am here blogging.
I PROMISE I am gonna try and start doing it again.
I need to post pictures of all the pintrest inspired things I have done.

Life update.....
We are well.
That pretty much sums it up.
Yes, we have our ups and downs.
But I have seen the light on the over sharing, some things dont need to be put out there for all to read.
I know, it's about time.
But really, every one is healthy, except me, I have a sinus thing going on and i refuse to to a Sinus Cleanse.
Sorry, too gross.
I just cant.
The hubsters work schedule keeps changing.
I will have 2 high schoolers and 3 in elementary school soon.
Potty training on Mikey starts as soon as school does.
I will try and post on Tuesdays.
Really, I swear.....

Friday, May 11, 2012

Pintrest Junkie

I am not loving htis new blogger style. Yuck!

I am addicted to pintrest.
 almost to the point I dont goon facebook much anymore.
I am a busy mom , with tons of projects to do, all of which I got off of Pintrest.
 I will try and make sure I take pictures so you can see.
 Maybe I will bring back tastey Tuedays and add Pintrest projects.
yesh, when I have to time.

Friday, April 27, 2012

Yes, I know.

I has been a while.
I moved.
I have movedinto my parents house while they are on a Mission for our church.
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. They are in Des Moines, Iowa right now. OWrking in the Mission Presidents office. My dad with all the cars and my mom in a office assistance kind of position. They are loving it but missing us.
The rent was half of what we were paying, so we jumped on it.
Our goal is to save money for a house.
 and as most of our goals go....it s not panning out.
But I have to remind myself, it has only been a month.
 Yes, we pulled the boys out of school.
Yes, they didn't like it, but I didn't want to live in that other house any more.
The boys are adjusting...sort of. The teenagers beg to stay home every single day.  We have yet to go to our new ward.
Lost of Changes.
Sammy turned 9.
Jeff got a new shift at work that gives him the chance to be at home in the evenings for dinner and homework. The new shift also means he misses church.
I miss my life in that other house. The days of going back to bed after getting the boys off to school, (since we lived right across the street)
I miss being closer to my sister Carrie.
I miss seeing my aunt every day.
I miss the convience of Winco and the 99 cent store being so close.
And I miss my Mom and dad.
 I hate living here in there house with my stuff and them not being here.
It is one thing to live here with their stuff, but my stuff, where mom's stuff has been forever.
I still go to reach for a dish towel or dish cloth under the silverware drawer. Where it has been in this house for 30 years!!!!! Even though I have moved it to under the sink. (That was wear it was in my house and our garbage can does not fit under the sink)
I am in a funk.
I just want to under under the covers and do nothing. I can't.
Jeff is someone I don't deserve. He is so freaking AWESOME!!!! But he gets to a point where he can't take it any more and just does it. Not everything mind you.
 Jeff has the mentality that it has to be done right away. And I am in the mind, i will do it when I am ready. It will get done, just not when Jeff thinks it should be. I have my way of doing things and he has his. I would rather play with my kids then make sure every dirty dish is washed or every single piece of dirty laundry is washed or every cubbard is totally organized.
 It gets done. but when I can wrap my head around it.
The boys have chores, but they miss things.
 I am am basically in charge of the kitchen. All meals and cleaning is done by me.
I also watch my sisters boys Sawyer and Levi. 2 of THE cutest boys known to man. Handful? Yes, but I love them so much. ALL worth it.
And what's 2 more, really?
I am doing well. was off my anti-depressant for a few days, ran out. and since I have a weird freaky phobia of the phone (and I was sick) I didnt call for a refill. Jeff did it for me, but My anixety was so high.
Suffered all those years and didn't know what it was. Just thought it was normal.
I am hoping to post more. Gotta figure out how to get the pictures off my iphone.
 I have been crafty lately and trying new recipes, because I love Pintrest.
I have 3 Apps on the front of my iphone right above my wallpaper picture of the LDS Salt Lake Temple.
Pintrest, my Smurf game and Facebook.
I dont even have what the ipod was intended for on the front, music.
It is on there, just not in the front. but really, when do I have time.
It has been an adjustment for everyone here.
Emma has been cranky, mikey is not used to not having all of my attention or used to sharing the attention. the boys hate school. they both dont understand why we wlive at Granma and Pap's house and they aren't here.
I typed that I hated taking them to school, but i backspaced to re-type... i have a love/hate relationship with driving the boys to school.
We go through more gas, not it is not that far away, but far enough I have to drive. until we get the boys bikes fixed, that is.
I like that I get up for the day, I get more stuff done, but I hate missing out on the the 30 minutes of extra sleep.
Since Jeff's new schedule changed, he has to go to bed earlier. which means, the little ones who fell asleep and were either woken up by brothers going to bed, or just deciding they have had enough of a nap, I get to be the one who takes care of them until the wee hours of the morning. then then get up and get all off to school and be ready for 2 more boys.
In February, we decided to start going to my parents ward to get the kids used to it. Then in March, 2 weeks before my parents gave their farewell talks in church, a member of the bishopric from their ward asked me to give a talk in the ward the follwing Sunday. This man, is one of Jeff's favorite people, and someone we have all looked up too. How could I say no?
Actually, I said...."but I am not even in your ward yet?
Then I asked him...."are you sure?"
He looked at me, tears in his eyes, and said he felt prompted by the spirit to ask me.
Now, I havent given a talk in 21 years.
Yes, fellow mormon people, I have said no, for 21 years.  I remember the last one I gave was right after girls camp and 2 summers before I got married.
I did fabulous, though my anixety was high, i couldn't let my family down.
I will copy/paste my talk on here.
I have to say, I didn't know my talk was last and I am truly thankful, the Brother that asked me to speak made sure I didn't have to talk long. He filled in the slots of time with some testimonies. He is now on my hero list. Thank you Brother Suofoa.
I was certain I would blubber and cry through out the entire talk, but I suprised my self and did okay.
 I did cry. But they could understand me. my favorite part. They laughed at me. But they laughed at just the right parts.
I have had a history with issues with ward members from other wards. Lots of assumtions and misunderstandings and judgement and growing up was had. and alot of that was me.
I have become very unfriendly...okay, that is the wrong word....I have become...shy, but not.
I don't go out of my way to introduce myself anymore. Does that make sense?
I didn't try very hard in my last ward. I don't know why. It was a wonderful ward.
I am hoping to become more out going in this ward. We have plans to find a house out here, so we can stay a while.
Did I mention I missed my Mom and dad like crazy?
Well, I do.
I hope to get out of this funk.

Oh, here is my talk. (there was some improv. I just dont remember it.)


Good Morning,

My name is Katie Bigney.
I am not technically in the ward…yet. My parents are Jerry and Susi Scoville, and my family and I will be moving into their house while they serve their mission in Iowa.
Right now, I still don’t know how Brother Suafoa got me up here, since I haven’t given a talk in 21 years. Yes, I actually said no to a bishopric member, more than once, and no, I am not proud of it.
Super short story about me; Born and raised here in Sacramento, Married the best guy on the planet, Jeff in the Oakland Temple in 1994 and we now have 6 kids, 5 boys and 1 girl, but not in that order. I love music, but can’t sing in the choir. I get too emotional and end up crying through every hymn.


I have a horrendous memory. I can remember all the words to a Depeche Mode song from 1991, but I will probably not remember your name if I met you this morning. I am extremely shy and it takes me a while to warm up. I usually just sit back and watch the show.


I honestly believe I have the best family and know I was born into this family for a reason. I proudly say I have 20something nephews and 7 nieces. That includes both Bigney and Scoville families. I never thought I would be in love with that many boys at one time.


Really quick, just because I am Susi Scoville’s daughter, does not mean I am as creative as she is. Don’t believe the hype. Simple, slow paced calling, please.


The first thing I said when I was asked to give this talk was…
”But I am not even in this ward?”
I guess it didn’t matter. I am terrified right now.

I was asked to speak from the April 2011 General Conference talk given by Mary N. Cook titled:


“Remember This: Kindness Begins with Me”

Shortly after the realization that I actually said yes to give a talk in Sacrament meeting, the panic set in.

After sharing the topic of my talk to a few people they all said they same thing,
“Oh, that is perfect for you!”
I doubt my boys would agree. You know, I have been deemed the meanest mom ever, a few times actually.

Kindness
It is such a simple thing.
We sing in primary:


I want to be kind to ev’ryone,
For that is right, you see.
So I say to myself, “Remember this:
Kindness begins with me.”

I have tried to teach my children to be kind.
To all. No matter what.
And in general, they are, mostly to other people, not quite enough to each other.


Sister Cook talks about the
The 13th Article of faith;

“We believe in being honest, true, chaste, benevolent, virtuous and in doing good to all men…”
Benevolent…and doing good to all men…

A beloved prophet has taught us about being kind.
President Ezra Taft Benson tells us that a person who is kind, is sympathetic and gentle with others, is considerate of others’ feelings, is courteous in his or her behavior, and has a helpful nature. He goes on to say, “Kindness pardons others’ weaknesses and faults. Kindness is extended to all—to the aged and the young, to animals, to those low of station as well as the high.”

I truly believe we can practice being kind within our own families, among our friends, in our schools, and in our communities.
If you think about it, no act of kindness is ever wasted. Acting kindly can change the giver and the receiver for good.

I believe kindness should start in the home.
It doesn’t have to be grand, it could be as simple Jeff letting me sleep in and getting the kids off to school, because I was up with the little one who took at nap at 8pm the night before.
Or as simple as my oldest son taking my littlest to the park so I could have a cling free 20 minutes. He is very clingy.

Okay, my mom told to share some stories…Here it goes mom.
My Mom makes the most amazing heart shaped sugar cookies for Valentine’s Day. It is something my Grandmother did for us when I was a kid. We always knew we would get that cookie on Valentines day, even if we got nothing special at school.
This is not just any cookie. This is a heart shape, the size of your hand, sweet heaven in your mouth, piped with your name in beautiful pastel colored frosting, kind of a cookie. If you know the size of my family, there is a lot of us. 40 something cookies she made this year. She actually made a few extra for some close friends of my sister, just so they didn’t feel left out. That to me is kindness.


I was raised with knowing service brings joy. Not by words, but by example. Now, this is when I am gonna cry.
Both my parents showed us, that helping people move, making dinner for someone, folding chairs after a church meeting, never leaving the building until it was all clean, even if you weren’t in charge.
My Dad is one of those special guys. They are gonna love him in Iowa. I remember from an early age, already late for some meeting or family activity, watching him pull over to the side of the road to help someone push their car off the road, or slowing down if someone was broken down to make sure they had everything they needed.
He has always helped everyone. Family, friends, and even strangers. He will sacrifice time, sweat, and even the last piece of black licorice for anyone in need. That is a big deal to me, cause I like black licorice.


Another important person who has been the biggest example to me on kindness and benevolence and doing good to all men is our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
The Savior promises to give us kindness eternally and unconditionally.
In 3rd Nephi chapter,22 verse 10 it says….


“For the mountains shall depart and the hills be removed, but my kindness shall not depart from thee.” (3 Ne. 22:10;


Sister Cook also tells us:
“Our Savior taught us about and lived a benevolent life. Jesus loved all and He served all. Centering our lives on Jesus Christ will help us acquire this attribute of benevolence. For us to develop these same Christ like attributes, we must learn about the Savior and “follow in His ways.” Close quote.


I have always viewed my life like a book.
Where every thought, word and deed are written down in the book for my entire life, to be read out loud on judgment day. Do I want more kind thoughts, words and deeds to be written? Of course.


It is hard to remember that on a bad day when nothing seems right and I let my temper get the better of me.
My goal and challenge for you is to be kind.
Try it once a little extra every day this week. Call the less active and invite them to a play day. Be slow to judge, even a simple smile and a hello, how are you, will do wonders. Go out of your comfort zone and extend a hand and maybe introduce yourself to the extremely shy lady sitting in the back row.
I know, as we strive to be kind and truly love one another, we will feel closer to Christ.
“With everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the Lord thy Redeemer.” (3 Ne. 22:8)


I have a testimony of this wonderful gospel. I know that my Heavenly Father is there and he loves me. I have a testimony of Jesus Christ, His love for me and in the atonement.

I know Joseph Smith was a prophet and I know we have a living prophet today, Thomas S Monson.
I love my family. I am grateful for every gross and disgusting and wonderful thing my boys will ever do, I am grateful for my sweet beautiful daughter Emma, I know she was my present. I am so gratefull for my husband and the sacrifices his makes every day, just by going to work to provide for us. He is one of my hero’s.

I know that by living the gospel we have been blessed with everything we have. I truly believe that by being kind and loving one another I will be able to stay close to my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I say these things, in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.


Okay, so that was it. reading it over made me cry again. Weird right?
I have to get back to my day....yucky. (I want my bed!)

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy Valentines Day!

this month so far has been very busy.
My parents got thier mission call. they will be serving a 1 year mission for our church in Des Moines, Iowa.
They are excited to go. We will miss them.
They are renting us thier house for the year for a VERY good deal and we will be moving at the end of March.
Valentines day is today and it is 3 am.
I am up because i spent the day, making hair pretties with my aunt, making her favorite Chicken Divan for dinner and then we made sugar cookies.
I never had time to clean or decorate for Valentines day. so I am up trying to make my house all lovey-dovey for when they wake up.
Am I a realy nice mom, who loves their kids and wants to surprise them ....?
OR.....
Am I that weird freaky OCD lady who made plans and is determined to get it done because she knows no one will do it for her...or the right way?
I am thinking both,.
..(but really it is the OCD thing)
Okay, falling asleep here.
Now, it is all here... plain and simple.
You will know me now as this determined sort of freaky lady.
I had to change my blog to Valentines stuff, before Valentines day and I am using valuable decorating time to make sure it is done.
Happy Love Day everyone!
I hope you have someone out there who loves you as much as I love my family.
I will try and post pictures of all the things I have done this month.
I am sorry, I didnt feel like checking my grammer.
I am not that OCD.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

January Blues - New year - New goals

I have been avoiding blogging.
Shocked aren't you.
It is a new year, a new beginning, a chance to change habits formed last year that were not good for you.
Right?
I have a confession.
I am feeling the blues.
Winter blues.....
Okay, let's be real.
I am blue.
I am as blue as a smurf.
I am addicted to a little Smurf game on my itouch I got for my birthday called
Smurf Village.
The reason I started playing it was to lose the DS Lite addiction I had.
I ended up replacing that addiction for this one.
Addicted is used loosely.
It runs my daily schedule.
No, unfortunately, it is soo very true.
No, I realize how I need to kick this habit and focus on my other obsession....
CLEANING MY HOUSE.
Sounds like a great obsession right, HA!
I have 6 kids.
2 of them are home and hang around mommy all day.
ALL DAY!
I can't sit on the couch or go to the bathroom with out a buddy.
Yes, it is nice that I am loved and I know I need to enjoy it while they are young....blah, blah, blah...
I am a woman on a mission.
I have to get this house in order and clean and guest friendly.
I have made amends with a certain someone who last summer hurt my feelings.
Now, I forgave this person almost instantly. I understand where this person was coming from. I totally do. I am so over it.
My hunny, well, it is taking him a lot longer to forget. Forgiving is easy. (if you want my secret for forgiveness you have to contact me via email, and I will share)
Forgetting is harder.
I am wearing him down, so I am hoping to see this someone soon, but I gotta get my house ready.
Back to my blues...
I just wanna finish the game and be done and get my house cleaned out. (not in that order, no law out there that says I can;t do both at the same time)
then I can .....
I honestly stopped typing.
Because I have no idea.

What will have have to obsess over when both things are done?

I had to stop and think.
And then force myself to type the next line.
Fine, I guess I will obsess over my husband and kids. Those monsters who broke my broom, for the 21st time.
yes, you read that right.
21 brooms.
(this time I stuck a dowel down the center of the metal broom handle and duct tape the crap out of it. fairly sturdy, it will be hard to break this one)
okay, I have 3 other goals and then I will post on the side of my blog.
As I, complete a goal, the goal will disappear.
Are you ready?
Exercise 4 times a week
Scripture study with my family daily
Personal prayer and personal scripture study every morning and night
A craft project once a week (I am happier when I craft)
No app games until I read to my kids.
Read a book for myself
More attention to my hunny.
No new app games.
Now if you add, organizing the house and finishing my smurf game that is only 10 goals.

Of course, there are more. I have to start with stuff I know I can do.
What are your goals? any craft things you wanna do?
Do share.
I love sharing, it's my favorite.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Merry Humbug!

Yes, I said Humbug.

It is just the way I feel.
My house is a mess, I have ten thousand loads of laundry.
My tree isn't decorated.
Heck, it isn't even have lights on it.
I guess I finally understand why growing up my mom got so cranky before Christmas. (if I posted a post like this last year, I apologize, I don't have time to time this blog let alone check past posts)
As we speak, I have yet to do my traditional teacher gift, with home made white chocolate dips pretzels and snowman marshmallow candy, with other blue and silver candies to go with my blue and silver snowflake gift bags or boxes, including a snowflake ornament.
Yes, I do blue and white and snow. Why?
Well, one of these Christmas seasons, my kids will end up with a teacher who doesn't believe in Christmas or is Jewish, so I started playing it safe with blue and snowman stuff. More of a seasons greetings.
Honestly, I can;t believe I am here typing, it is 8:57pm and my boys are playing outside, I have hair pretties to make, teacher gifts (thank goodness for High school and Jr. High, on 2 teachers this year) I also have to make Lemon Squares for my Nathan to take to a pot luck for tomorrow. I just finished eating...sort of my dinner. Thank goodness for the goobers who were home when the pot roast went off on the timer,t they never took it out of the oven...but they did turn off the oven.
Even bribing my kids with money for "babysitting" each other whilst I shop for Christmas cheer, gets them to help me out around here!
That's right.
Christmas Cheer.
That is what all this work and time and effort are for.
That good old, dumb magical Christmas Cheer that isn't even appreciated until they are grown up with obnoxious, ungrateful teenagers of their very own.
I here by shout to the world.
" MOM,I AM SO SORRY I WAS AND UNGRATEFUL OBNOXIOUS TEENAGER"
I do know deep.....deeep.....deeep down, they are grateful.
And I do know in the very end, which is 5 minutes after the presents are opened, it is allllll worth it.
Kinda.
I am grateful that the stress of purchasing gifts this year was not there at all. Getting the right thing was.
I am soooo grateful for my husband who worked extra over time to pay for the Christmas....(all CASH!).
Thanks babe.

Wow, I did it, I actually posted. I....hope I can post a picture of our Tree and the kids soon.
Who am I kidding.....I will be lucky, if I make it over here until next year.

Monday, December 5, 2011

Christmas Cards

Does anyone still do Christmas cards? I no longer make them from scraps of paper, taking that extra time and love.
This year we have opted to not do it at all.
Well, not a card, but a CD of some of our favorite Christmas songs.
(well, this year, it is some new songs and old songs I LOVE)
The postage to send these suckers out will be the same as doing a picture card and ordering it from Wal-mart.
If you want one, send me your address via email and I will send you one.
I hope everyone likes this one this year, it is a bit different then years past.
I love Christmas music.
This year a asked Jeff if I could start listening to it the day after Halloween.
Of course, I didn't wait for his answer and I started looking for new versions to my favorite Christmas songs.
I wouldn't be offended if anyone gave it away, or even threw it in the trash.
It is different.
But if you know me at all, I am one of those criers. The ones who cant sing at church, because the words of the hymns hit the core of my heart and I start to ball. I mean, like need a tissue kind of a cry.
I have to mouth the words and pretend so my kids will sing.
It is the same with Christmas songs.
I have such a huge testimony of Jesus Christ and his love for me and all of us on this earth. And when almost every song is about Him.... the tears can't be held back.
So...... I went a little rock and roll this year.
Maybe a little too much.
There is some funki-ness too.
I like all kinds of music. (except Gangster rap)
Why am I so nervous about this CD?
I hope everyone gives this a chance and listen to it more than once.
Maybe a few times.
It only took Jeff 3 or 4 times listening to 'tobymac' to love it like I do.
If you want one, email me your address.
If you hate it when you get it, I am truly sorry....but I love it.
EVERY SINGLE SONG!!!

Happy.

I am happy.
I am.
It is almost unreal.
I have lived so long being depressed I am not sure how to even proceed.
I have been thinking about it for days.
I even said to my aunt, "I am happy, but it feels weird to be so happy."
I mean, lets get real, there is the everyday stuff...."am I a good mother?"
or "it is my fault we are ave have not bought a house yet." (I have impulse control issues and, well, you figure it out)
But other then doubting myself a few times a day, I am happy.
I don't sit around wallowing in self pity. (I am not eating as much too.)
It is simple.
We have enough for our needs, we are healthy, Jeff has a pretty secure job.
Someone asked me, "Arent you waiting for the bottom for fall out?"
Yes, I am.
But I dont wallow.
I just set it aside to think about tomorrow.
I just try to do the best I can for that day and hope the bottom doesn't fall out along the way.
Speaking of bottoms, mine is quite large.
I am finally ready to do something about it.
Unfortunately, it is December, and a great time of my favorite foods and goodies.
Isn't January the time of renewly and starting over?
That sounds good, January.
Maybe by Summer, I will have a less large bottom.