My Birthday

My birthday was very nice.

Jeff was here.

It started out with sleeping in until 8:30.

Then I got breakfast in bed.

Then being lazy until I met my mom at the Deseret Book store for a few books from my favorite author.

Then to lunch with mom to Leatherby's. (the best ice cream parlor in Sacramento)

Back home to meet Jeff to go to an IEP meeting at school for Nathan, my 6th grader. (it wasn't good news)

Then back home for homework and chores.

I fell asleep feeding baby so I kinda got a nap. (I say kinda because the boys have never seen me take a nap so the interrupted me a lot.)

Jeff took me out to eat, which I had to remind him to, at the Golden Corral buffet.

It was way over priced and not very good. (extra for drinks)

Then back home for cake and cards from the boys and the best chocolate kisses from Emma.

Put the boys to bed and hung out with Jeff.

It was a very nice birthday.

Today was suppose to be errands (my drivers license expired) with Jeff and then lunch with my Aunt....well, I couldn't get someone motivated to go anywhere, so tomorrow we will do it all.

I hate wasting a day.

I am hoping tomorrow when I renew my drivers license I will not have to take a test. I will totally fail and that will be bad.

Not blogging

I have turned into not much of a blogger.

Just too many things i want to say, but can't.

My life is nothing I thought it would be 6 months ago.

But, just an update.

My brother Shane and his wife had their baby boy.

After a few extra days due to breathing issues and a tad bit of jaundice all is well and home.

His name is Cannon Carisle Scoville. He is very cute.

My mom mentioned that after Halloween, she has nothing going on.

Except for help me find a place to live.

My sister Aimee is doing better. Still in pain, (they said it will be months, like 6 to 8, before she is back to feeling normal, and a month of horrible pain still).

I really need to buckle down and actually look for a place to live.

Wow, rentals here in Sac are expensive. But utilities and medical insurance are more the half of what it was in Susanville, so it should even out. but... (except water. That just went up.)

Not sure where we want to go yet. want to wait until after this school semester for the boys. Move during winter break in case it is out of the school they are now.

I guess we will see.

I read other blogs and everyone has regular stuff going on and they are getting things canned and stored and I am still, just in limbo.

Will it ever end?

We had to post pone the blessing of Michael because of issues with scheduling time off work with Jeff. It all boils down to one word on a form he turned in months ago for time off.

Because he didn't express enough, that he REALLY did needed to be their for MICHAEL after he was born.

Duh, I had surgery, I could barely carry him around.

So, cross your fingers and toes it all goes well. We have until 28th to figure it out or it is really bad.

I am so tired.

I can't think straight.

Wonder why.... oh yeah, Michael.

He is so worth it though.

Life goes on.

Amazing

Go to this blog. Go there first and read it.

This is my sister.

She amazes me.

I will NEVER be as awesome, or great, or brave, or strong, or wonderful as her.

I try not to complain, really I do, (but this is my place to complain).

I will try harder now.

What KILLS me, is that I couldn't help her.

I couldn't take care of kids, go and sit with her, or hold her hand as she lay in agony.

I moved all this way back home, gave up a happy life in a funny little small town, (which I secretly adored) to be with my family, to help them when they were in need and I couldn't do it.

It makes me cry.

Every time my mom would call, or come into the room saying that she had to go back to the hospital, I asked why?

Why her?

Why Aimee?

She, of all people, should not be forced to endure any more physical pain in her life.

She is awesome, amazing.

I am grateful she is on the mend.

I am lucky to be related to her.

Aimee, I love you.

You are amazing.

Update - 10/18/09

All is swell.

okay, so I will update in great detail later. ( You know you want to know)

Busy, but good.

Update

Really quick.

Baby is sleeping and so is everyone else.

I need to sleep when they are all sleeping.

Sister's baby is adorable.

Annabella Violet Blue Bennion (mouthful know but no other name fits her)

My dad's birthday was last night.

He spent most of the weekend putting up the Halloween decorations.

Getting ready for Halloween takes weeks. I will post pictures and show you as soon as I can.

I am suffering with a lot of pain.

It is like a tearing or burning in the incision area.

Not a surface pain. All internal.

No, I am not going to the doctors. I don't want to go alone, and my mom is too busy with other members of my family who need her more. I will go if it gets worse.

I took 3 200 mg Motrin and a Vicodin and it didn't touch it.

I went to bed, and the pain is almost gone this morning.

I did too much today. (running a house with 6 kids is really hard) and so now the pain is back, but not as bad. I just took some Motrin.

Hopefully I will get some more rest.

I am afraid of driving in the rain. I am still recovering and nervous anyway, now with rain?

really bad rain?

Might reschedule Michael Dr. appointment.

Jeff is freezing in Susanville. Poor thing. He is getting overtime, which is good. I miss him so much.

The boys are getting better and behaving better at grandma's house, but still adjusting. Now they have to get used to Dad, being gone.

I hate this.

Emma will be a pill for 13 more days. Then she will be so made at Jeff for being gone, she will be even worse.

I hope I never have to do this again.

This is way harder than I thought it would be.

My sister Aimee is still in pain, and recovery will take months. She is home and fairly high on pain meds. (just kidding)

Now we are waiting for my brothers Shane's wife Jami will have her baby.

Any day now!

What will they call him? e are running out of boys names in this family. This little one will be boy number 18.

Any ideas?

Babies!

My sister Carrie is at labor and delivery right now.

This means another grand-baby to add to the bunch.

But this time it is a girl.

And that is very rare.

Total Score: boys 18 girls 4

And one more on the way due in March. (sister Sarah)

Frogs and Snails and puppy dog tails...

My poor sweet baby.

He was circumcised today.

I decided to stay in the room.

Big mistake.

I cried.

He was strapped down.

The nurse had sugar water for him to suck on while the doctor did the procedure.

The doctor described what he was doing and why.

It looks terrible now, but I know it will get better.

But poor baby.

Every time he pees he screams.

The doctor said tylenol is okay.

I kinda think it was harder on Jeff than me or Michael.

He didn't say much until after.

Poor babies.

We got Kaiser back.

Now for those of you who are not from around Sacramento, Kaiser is a HMO.

Yes, I am thrilled.

After having both, PPO and HMO, I am happy to go back to a HMO.

The medical bills just from having Emma are still haunting us. All $2400 of it.

Sammy's "middle finger in the sliding glass door" too. All $800 of that.

Yes, all of that after insurance.

Kaiser will have it's own challenges, but we have it both ways and as far as medical personal... they are pretty much the same.

We lucked out with Michael's "circ" (they called it that at the doctors today)... Medical would not cover it and it was going to be $250.

Which we don't have to spend.

On a very sad note....

My sister Aimee is back in the hospital.

Please pray for her.

Her lung collapsed again.

They put in another chest tube and it didn't work.

She says it fells like flopping. Like her lung is flopping back and forth in her chest.

NOT GOOD!

Options are slim to none as what to do next.

It kills me to be here and not be over helping.

I mean, I live in town now!

Isn't this what I have complained about for 4 years!?

Being with family and helping them when they need help!?

I know it will happen, but it is really hard to sit here and do nothing... well you know what I mean.

I have no new pictures of my new boyfriend Michael... I don't know how to load them into my dad's computer.

And my dad is going to be out of town for the next few weeks ... off and on.

I will try to see if he can load some more the next time I see him.

Will life ever slow down?

Life has been so fast paced lately.

I am still waiting to take a nap.

I mean, I gave birth.

Don't I deserve a nap?

I am kidding....kinda.

I am a mother of six. (That really voids any nap privileges.)

That is so weird to say let alone type.

SIX KIDS!

6 kids before I am 36.

What was I thinking?

Another joke....kinda.

You know what I mean.

Good (sorta)

I am in love.

With the cutest little man ever. (and Jeff, he is amazing)

Super tired. (wonder why)

Life getting back to normal. (almost)

Hospital drugs and swelling almost gone. (my ring is back on my finger)

Feeling almost human, but more like a cow. (nursing)

Counting the days until Jeff is gone. (7 days).

Boys on another horrible mood thing. (The change of the new baby and less of mom's attention.)

Bills paid, not much left. (How will I ever save money to move out? Too many bills, almost caught up.)

life is just busy.

Good, crazy, emotionally hard, but good.