where do I begin.....?

so much has happened.
It started Tuesday at my ultrasound appointment.
My good friend Monica went with me because Jeff had to work.
They were checking the levels of amniotic fluid. They noticed it was higher than it should be at this time in my pregnancy. we got to see his adroable face. the ultrasound tech kept showing his lips and face. he is still breech, but she pointed out he has tons of hair..." see all the white dots?" she asked...."these are air bubbles, which right next to his head means he has got hair...and lots of it!"
He is a cute baby. I can't wait to hold him. I still need a name. She tried to get a gender double check. I keep having nightmares that he comes out a girl and I have given all my girl stuff away!
My doctors appointment on Thursday proved to be the weirdest day in a long time.
Well, the Tuesday ultrasound showed that it was more fluid than the week before. And I gained 6 lbs in a week.
The doctor was so concerned he wants me to see a specialist in Reno. He wants some more blood test done, me to pee in a jug for 24 hours and get steroid shots. Also to take it easy for the weekend....kinda like best rest....
Yeah, right, I have 5 kids.
Of course I freak out. On the inside.
I joked the reason for my blood pressure being so high was that my in-laws were on their way into town to visit for the day. The doctor did not laugh.
Straight from the doctors office I headed to the hospital and got my first shot of steroids and to pick up my jug.
That hurt. The shot, not the jug.
And then we went to get some food for lunch to feed Jeff's parents.
By the time I got home the steroids were taking effect. It was subtle.
We really enjoyed the time we had with them. I always dread the visit, but end up eating my words.
We talked for hours, well Jeff's mom and I did. Had a great visit...The boys played outside.
Then as I was giving her some clothes I was about to give to the thrift store, my hip went out.
Like I almost fell.
I sat for a while, and then got up to make dinner.
I didn't want to ruin the visit, so even though I felt weird and could barely walk I made dinner.
It got worse by the time we were eating.
I talked my mother in law into watching Momma Mia, which she had never seen, (and she loved it) and in the middle of dinner I finally told Jeff I was having problems.
I couldn't walk. The pain in my hips was horrible. I was afraid to walk. The joints in my arms and shoulders hurt. I felt dizzy, I couldn't see 7 feet in front of me clearly, my eyes were burning and I felt like I was on fire.
We called the advice nurse and they said take me to the hospital.
I begged for Jeff to let me finish my dinner and off we went. Jeff's Parents volunteered to stay with the kids.
Off we went. by then I was having contractions and the base of my back and hips hurt...really bad. and intensified with each contraction.
they hooked me up to all the monitors and made me drink lots of water.
tests and more tests, I checked out okay. We made it home by 11:30.
Jeff and his dad gave me a blessing and I took some pain meds for the pain that was still in my back.
The doctor on call said it was some of the side effects of the steroids. You basically feel like crap.
No one warned me of the side effects.
I think just from my busy morning/day, not drinking enough water and all the news and stress of it all made me go into labor.
Jeff stayed home from work on Friday and after my second steroid shot I laid in bed most of the day.
My mom is trying to convince me to just move to Sacramento and have the baby there.
The main concern for the baby is that my body will keep producing more fluid and the uterus will think I am ready to deliver when I still have just a little over 6 weeks to go.
They do not have the proper facility to take care of an early baby here in this town. They will recommend Reno.
Reno is an hour and half from my town. I have 5 kids and I will have no help.
My best bet is staying in Sacramento, where they have several hospitals that can take care of the baby if he came early in a moments notice...well with in 20 minutes and not an hour and a half. I would have more help then I will need in Sacramento.
It is the smart thing to do.
We will have to move soon.
Stress!
We will see the doctor on Monday, he will check fluid levels and then the specialist in Reno is on Tuesday. We have to wait and see what he says.
Not sure what he will say. If he says bed rest, then we will be moving the kids and I to Sac to my mom's house.
Jeff will stay behind and work until he can get a hardship transfer or until his transfer comes through in December.
He will just have to come and visit every other weekend until the baby comes. It will be the hardest thing we will ever do. But just for the safety of this baby, it will have to work.
I can not even tell you the stress level I am at.
The steroids are so weird. I had the same symptoms yesterday after my shot that I had on Thursday. But this time I was sent to my room.
I have no idea what I did to deserve a guy like Jeff, I am so lucky. (I still haven't figured out why he loves me so)
The side effects are still here today, just not as bad. I am jittery and my eyes still burn, but I can see better.
Which is good, because I had to drive to town to turn in my 24 hours of urine.
Never a weirder feeling then to have to carry a jug of pee into a hospital.
They are checking for protein...toxemia.
Not sure if I will be at church tomorrow. Just not feeling well.
My back and hips don't hurt, which is good, but if I do too much i feel pain in my back, like shooting, pulsating jolts of pain with every beat of my heart. I hate it.
Jeff is working too, I wish I could say I wish he was home.
He got some overtime tonight.
Thanks to Arnold and his furloughs, we need every dime. And have to suffer with the any and all over time he can get.
That 3rd furlough day took away my grocery money. What little I had.
That is what has been going on in my life.
I am an emotional wreck. So many things to think and ponder on. So many things to stress over... and these steroids on top of my hormones are not helping.
Any and all help is excepted.
Any advice is welcome too.
I need more stress like I need a shot in the butt....which I might get again next week.
Wish me luck.