Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Feeling Old
He has been in the double digits for a year now, this one just seems worse.
He is no longer a little kid.
He can babysit Emma for 30 minutes (max).
He isn't a CUB scout anymore.
He wears teenage size clothes.
He no longer qualifies for a "Happy Meal".
He asked for a "Rip Stick" for his birthday.
We said maybe, it depends on your grades. (at the time they were $89)
His grades were not good. He was devastated. Jeff said no way.
I asked him if he wanted cash for his birthday or presents. I was gonna spend like $50.
He asked for the cash. Plus money from Grandma Susi and the price of this crazy looking skate board being lowered to $59 ....he was able to get his "Rip Stick"
(He has to work off some extra stuff he wanted by picking up dog poop, separating cans and bottles to recycle and help cleaning the garage. because he went over)
This afternoon I took him and 2 friends to see Transformers 2.
Great movie. Some swearing and dog leg humping. lots of funny parts. MOSTLY ACTION!
I will not be taking anyone in my family younger than 10.
We are having a sleepover now in the back yard in a tent. With S'mores.
We were going to do Root Beer floats, but after cupcakes and S'mores... I don't think we will need it.
I am gonna go hang out in my room and watch TV and fold clothes while they watch a "guy flick". All the others are going to bed. And hopefully soon, the 3 11 year olds will retreat to the backyard.
I have a glucose pregnancy test tomorrow at 7am.
No eating for 12 hours before. Which means, no midnight snack of an apple. I peal and cut one every night before bed and I snack on it all night when I wake up to go potty.
I only get water.
I have now watched all the boys and Emma eat a cupcake with frosting.... I am dying here.
I am doing my test that early so I don't have to watch everyone eat the pancakes and sausage for breakfast.
I hope I make it through the night.
It has been a good and long...very long day.
Happy Birthday, Nate.
I think you are a great kid. I am so glad you are mine.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
33 days - bitter sweet
As the days go by, way to fast for me, we are now on a count down. We are undecided when it comes to staying or going. Not that it is up to us. The state of California will decide int he end.
I was pondering yesterday.
As I drove home from taking Jeff to work , I really enjoyed the scenery.
I do love this small town.
I know I make a lot of jokes, but I do like it here.
I like the town, I like the feel, I like the simplicity of it.
Ahhhh...the simple life.
Examples of our simple life:
You can only drive 30 mph on Main Street - which means, you HAVE to drive slow. You notice more odd things and odd looking people that live in our town. Plus our cops are not too busy, so going 32 mph will get you a ticket.
We don't have a community pool - which is really funny to most of us city born folk. You have a Lake 20 minutes away, but most of the kids in town have never learned to swim... no pool, no swimming lessons.
Fashion: Most if the kids have the same clothes...when the only place to shop in town is Wal-Mart.....and the kids don't know any different, so they don't care... well yes, the teenagers do care.
Stop lights: hold on I have to count.....I think there is seven total.
Fast food: there aren't many choices. Mc D's, Jack in the Box, Taco bell, Burger King and KFC....we do have a Starbucks...the tall Vanilla Bean frap is worth it and all I get.
ONLY 1 $1 store - And everyone was excited to find out they moved to a bigger spot.
Entertainment: We have to movie theaters one is up town and the other is 2 or 3 blocks down Main street. One has 2 screens... (not sure about the other one). If you miss the first two weeks of a new movie, then you might just have to wait until it comes out on DVD.
We have bowling, too. We have never been, but it looks like fun.
The sad thing is everyone knows your business and is talking about you. Sometimes that is good and sometimes bad. Good because you get help even if you don't ask...or won't ask. And bad, well that should be obvious.
Wildlife: the deer everywhere are fun to look at until they poop on your lawn and eat your flowers and trees.
There is lots more about this town I love, but I can't name them all.
But the most important thing they don't have is our family.
It costs us quite a bit to travel home as often as we do. The state of California is in such a terrible mess and because we have a state job, we will suffer.
We are the only ones in my family who can afford it, except my brother Shane, but his job keeps him very busy, too busy.
And we will not be able to afford it much longer.
We NEED to move home. To be with our families, to help our families.
I know, I sound like a broken record.
Like I said up top... this is all bitter sweet.
I wanna stay, but I wanna move home.... the desire for each is equal.
33 days of being right here in this house. Sweet!
33 days of ..."I don't know if we will move to a different house in the area and I don't know if it means we will move away" Bitter!
I hate the unknown.
so very bitter sweet.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
I blogged
I am cranky and in a fairly stressed out bad mood.
I wrote things that are mean and not nice things.
But it felt good to say it out loud.
To write it down.
I can't say I feel totally better, but it did help.
Really, be glad I have finally learned my lesson:
"Don't blog in a bad mood!"
Tomorrow should be better...I don't have any idea where my future lies.... so it won't be great.
But Jeff is going to church tomorrow with us.
That alone cheers me up.
Plus the 16 hours of overtime he just got.
Wish me luck.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Crappity crap crap!
But when I am frustrated, I use certain phrase-ology.
Crap!
We just found out today, the Landlord will be going back on his word and not be working with us. Which just means, we now have an official date of moving out of this house and off this street. (which I am sure will make most of the people on this street, whom my boys totally annoy, very very happy)
August 1st.
The really crappy part is we don't have enough for a deposit on a new place. (almost, but not quite)
The crappiest part is that we don't know if Jeff will get a transfer.
REALLY super crappiest part.... the state budget is still up in the air...which means a possible I.O.U paycheck.
Which means.... I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!
I don't know where I am going.
I have no idea how I will pay for anything.
I have no idea how in the heck any of this will happen.
I have no idea about anything.
I hate not knowing.
I hate not having a plan.
I fear will will be homeless.
Cross your fingers, pray for us, do an Indian luck dance... whatever you can do to help us out, I am asking.
If you know of a place here we could rent for $1000 a month, that isn't too nice, (i have 4 boys)in the Susanville area....let me know.
I hear bad things come in 3's......i just hope the other 2 are not too bad.
I can hope.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
15 years...lucky me.
Certainly not a Returned Missionary.
I was kind of what some other Molly Mormon girls would call "wild".
OH NO... I wore cowboy boots...EEK! and I drank mountain dew!!!!
I know... a rebel.
It makes me laugh to think about it.
I am so glad I went to school that semester.
I am so glad I joined the Sorority.
I am so glad he called me for a date. (even though it took him 2 weeks to call....chicken)
I am so glad I didn't take it too personal when he talked about my best friend on our first date. (I knew he wanted to ask her out too)
I am so glad he like country and hated the bubble gum ice cream we got on our first date. (so gross...not even my dog would eat it)
I am so glad he didn't take it personal when I couldn't stop giggling with my friend and fellow double datee Nicole. (I was just so excited to be on a date with THE cutest guy in Fraternity)
I am so glad my family LOVED him. (Our second date. He took out the trash on a very busy day at my parents house, and NO ONE asked him to. Major brownie points from Mom)
I am so glad we talked for hours on our 4th date. (we kissed a lot too...great kisser.)
I am so glad he joined my family on our annual beach vacation in San Clemente.
I am so glad he proposed to me there. (especially since it wasn't planned and had only been 2 weeks and 5 days since our first date.)
I am so glad he prayed about it in the San Diego Temple... to make sure he was right.
I am so glad he he was right.
I am so glad he didn't make a fuss over not having a white tuxedo at our wedding. (gross)
I am so glad he made me feel beautiful that day. (even though my gorgeous curls I worked on for hours fell flat as soon as we hit the Oakland air...still sad my hair wasn't right...silly I know)
I am so glad I married him for time and all eternity.
I am so glad my Heavenly Father loved me enough to give me what I always wanted... I fairy tale.
My memories of the whole thing, a dream.
Meeting him down to our wedding day was that of a fairy tale.
A fairy tale perfect for me.
He is everything I ever wanted.
Still....
Still when he walks into the room, I get giddy.
Still when I see him smile, I get woozy.
Still when I know he is pulling up to the house after work, I get so excited I can't help but smile.
Still when I see his green eyes I melt.
Still when I watch him with my kids, I love him more and more. (if that is at all possible)
Still he makes me so happy.
Still, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.
It has been an adventure.
Lots of things have happened in the last 15 years.
In the last 15 years, we have had: (to name a few)
7 cars
5 TV's
moved 5 times (4 were in the same apartment complex)
have had 5 1/2 kids
2 dogs
19 jobs (18 of them were his)
8 couches (to me this is funny...we only purchased 1 brand new)
A hundred hard times
A thousand fights
A millions laughs
A billion wonderful memories
15 years of happiness
No, the fairy tale turned reality most of the time, but I wouldn't change a thing.
He is my best friend.
He is the best dad a girl could ever ask for her kids.
He treats me like a queen...of which I know I don't deserve.
I can't wait for the next 15 years.
I love you Jeff.
Forever and ever....and ever.
I miss you today.
15 years
I wish I could be happy.
HE IS AT SCOUT CAMP!
I didn't even get a Happy Anniversary text!
But I do love him, and I do love that we have been married all this time.
We have never done anything exciting for our anniversay, except our fist one.
I was pregnant with Matthew, and we house sat for my boss while they were out of town. Then we left for the beach. It wasn't fun. We kinda got lost, did alot of driving never found a spot at a beach to be alone. I think we even fought.
Did I mention I was pregnant? I wasn't very far along, so I was still very tired and sick.
The last 14 years since have been a dinner and a movie, or one or the other, or we would make a nice dinner and eat it alone.
This year for #15 I was hoping for something nice. A trip to Reno.... alas... it was not int he cards for us.
I never told Jeff what I hoped for. He is such a nice guy, and he knew they needed help at scout camp. What do i say? No.
I couldn't.
He will be back tomorrow and I am thinking he will be tired.
Oh well, it is just another year together right?
Monday, June 22, 2009
Blogged Out today!
If you haven't been invited just shoot me an email or leave a message and I will add you.
So today I am blogged out.
I have been blogging for a few hours.
Done today.
See you tomorrow.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Writing a book... or thinking about it.
Long day... done.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Too tired and so quiet
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Vacation
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Feelings...nothing more than feelings.
A sensitive person.
Even when I am not pregnant.
I cry at movies. (right now we are watching "The Other Side of Heaven"...totally crying)
I cry at TV shows. (hello, Grey's...that was almost impossible to not cry at)
I cry at myself when I have accomplished something great or small. (depends on the feat)
I cry when someone hurts my feelings.
I worry.
I worry about other people.
I worry about offending people. (I have reoccurring "foot in mouth" disease.)
I worry I am annoying and get on every one's nerves.
I worry people think I am dumb.
I worry what people think about me.
I worry that I really am what some people might think of me.
I love to love.
Friday, June 12, 2009
LAST DAY OF SCHOOL...eek!
No I am not excited.
I need to clarify that statement.
I know I have joked and complained in the past that I hate summer vacation because the boys are home ALL DAY LONG!
It used to be bad.
Now it just means another year is gone and another grade is coming up this fall.
It means my kids are growing up.
Like today: Matthew brings in his report card. We told him no "f's" or no cell phone. He is 13 1/2 and it is time.
Well he did have an "f".
I was so sad. I knew how much he wanted a cell phone.
I looked at the whole report card and he had IMPROVED in every other class!!!!
Like 2 "A's"!!!!!
To me it is worth the cell phone.
He may not have all the skills for that class he earned a bad grade in, but he did improve in the others. I immediately set up the cell phone. Jeff old phone, but Matthew did not care.
It is our trial run. I told him if he loses it, he doesn't get a new one.
If he improves next year and has kept very good care of the other phone, he will get a new one for his birthday, with a full keyboard text pad. He was thrilled. He will play with that all summer.
Sammy was the only other kid who improved in school.
Why won't my kids turn in the homework we spend so much time doing?
We were going to invest in a trampoline this summer. We don't plan on moving from this house until August...right before school starts. We will spend a lot of time at the lake, in our little pool, playing basketball, and hanging out with friends...this summer so we decided we were not going buy one. Plus, if we do transfer and even move, who wants to move the trampoline a few months after putting it up.
Summer will be fun.
All the boys have grown up more and the only child of mine I see giving me grief is Emma. So whinny and clinging to my side.
She will get new toys for her birthday, so that might help. She is talking more, so communication should be better too. Which makes a world of difference.
I have made a new rule before anyone can play.... they have to read 20 minutes and report what they read. They can read to Emma, read along to a book on disc, but they WILL read.
I am gonna find homework pages for them to do online. (any idea where to look?)
If there is any fighting or name calling: they will do each other chores and hug and kiss...IN THE FRONT YARD!!!!! (my friend Jana told me about that one, I love it)
Hopefully, we will hit the library program this summer, and hit the lake more.
I can't believe my boys are growing up.
Tonight is a big night for them.
Tonight is the father/son camp out in our ward. Jeff was more excited than the boys. He made lists of everything they would need. I KNOW he over packed too. I suggested he might invite a boy who's dad had to work, and he really just wanted to hang out with his boys.
yes, I teared up.
So Emma and I are here alone tonight.
I invited some girls over for chick flicks.
It is so weird to be so quiet this late in the day!!!
I forgot to mop my floor.
Oh well...hey, if you don't like me because I didn't mop my floor, then you are weird and have serious issues. It is a floor.
Don't worry I am going to do it now. Gosh!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
okay...time to blog.
It was really fun.
They day started with Jeff letting me sleep in. Then I got ready, did my "chores" and then about 1pm I was picked up by my GREAT friend Monica. We left so excited...singing Momma Mia so loud and then I realized I had no confirmation number. What is worse... I remembered my email with the confirmation number had been accidentally deleted!!!! what do I do now?
My tickets were at "will call". Jeff helped me and got a hold of someone at the theater and they said as long as I have my credit card I used to buy them and I my drivers license I was okay.
As soon as we hit Reno, we shopped. I had food shopping to do and Monica needed to get some big items. Costco was first. Then Wal-mart for ice we forgot to buy at Costco. (I am getting my own membership when I get to Sacramento next week. I really like it there.)
We met up with my mom and hit Toy-s-rus for Emma birthday presents and then over to dinner....OLIVE GARDEN... the best place ever!!!! I had my favorite dinner.... Chicken fettucini. YUM -OOOO and expensive-oooo
Then we headed over to the theater. FREE PARKING!!! Found our seats and waited. My poor mom had to sit behind the tallest guy in the building and got a cramp in her neck from having to lean over. After intermission she switched seats.
The show: It was good. We loved the songs. And there are about 3 or so that are not in the movie. Some of it was too crude for me. Too much boob grabbing and laying on top of each other....I dunno... call me a prude.... but they soooo could have left it all out. Some of the costumes accentuated the male "part" a little too much for my taste.
My mom followed us home (i sat in her car) and she got to stay with us until Sunday. We did NOTHING!!!!! It was nice. My mom hardly ever gets to do nothing. Always so busy helping this person or that. I needed no help so we just hung out. So much fun. There weather wasn't nice. It rained the whole time she was here so we didn't get to hit the lake. And my Mom is not used to the weather up here and froze. Poor thing.
This is the last week of school. No.... there is only one day left. Boo hoo. I am not looking forward to it at all. Boys home, fighting, bored. We hope to get a trampoline. Maybe that will help.
Emma's Birthday is Saturday. She will be 2. I can't believe she is 2. That was a very fast 2 years. We are having her party at Eagle lake. Just cupcakes and punch. (anyone is welcome)
Sunday after church, the boys and I are leaving to go to Sacramento for a week. I am terrified to drive. In all my 3 1/2 years living here I have never driven home. Jeff always drives. I am so nervous. The boys are excited to go home. Emma can't wait to see Papa.
Okay , so you are caught up. I will probably blog while in Sacramento. Wish me luck on my drive. So scared!!!!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
No bloggin' mood!
It was a wonderful visit and I will post more later.
Maybe I am just being lazy or this stupid cold that won't go away has put me there, eitehr way, I am not in the mood to blog.
My mom brought me a book so I am in the middle of that book, too.
Excited for the last week of school.
My favorite words this week.....
NO HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Cards and a Tasty Tuesday Recipe...All is SWELL
I LOVE playing cards with some of my 3 favorite people up here in Susanville.
We play a card game called Hand and Foot.
We try to do it once a week. (most of the time it is with our husbands along too and still fun)
We are not exclusive.
Anyone who likes to ditch their families on a week night and stay up late gabbing is more than welcome.
We just talk for hours and play the same game.
It is is fun.
We talk about everything.
Kids, family, husbands, life, jobs, experiences we have had in life.
My favorite day of the week.
Thanks girls for tonight, it just felt good to get out.
I am feeling better about moving. I don't feel like it would be a bad thing if we stayed.
I mean I still want to move, (REALLY BAD) but I will still be happy if we stayed, too.
Recipe time:
It is a Pampered Chef recipe. I did add some more Parmesan cheese.
I had the craving for it and had to look online a while to find it.
So good, my kids will eat it...well, minus the tomatoes.
Tomato Basil Squares: (preheat oven to 400 degrees)
1 refrigerated pizza dough
2 cups shredded mozzarella cheese
1 cup Parmesan cheese
2 tsp dried basil or fresh basil, chopped
2/3 cup mayonnaise
1 crushed clove of garlic
4 medium tomatoes thinly sliced
Roll out dough in a rectangle cookie sheet or pizza pan. Leaving and and and a half from the edges.
Mix 1 cup mozzarella cheese 1/2 cup Parmesan cheese, garlic, and basil in a small bowl.
Spread mixture over dough evenly.
place thinly cut tomatoes evenly over mixture.
Sprinkle the rest f the mozzarella and Parmesan cheese over tomatoes.
Bake 15 to 20 minutes.
Cut into squares and serve
This baby is doing good.
I am doing good.
I finally got over my cold. Now it is allergies.
My doc appointment today pushed my due date back to Oct 5th.
I have only gained 10lbs so far and am maintaining it very well.
I have lots of pressure and pain going down my leg.
Doc said,"um having your 7th pregnancy, 6th baby will do that to a woman".
But I feel really good.
Having a name finally has really helped.
Right now, Dallen is mad, I am still sitting at the computer and he is kicking me for more space.
But then I can't reach the keyboard.
We are almost done spring cleaning.
yay!
It will be nice when it is all done.
See, all is swell.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Too funny..and kinda gross.
At first it was hard to stomache and if you keep your eye on Edward Cullen it is alot easier.
I think it is funny now.
I won't tell you to enjoy. Just laugh along with me.
You have to scroll down and pause the music before you hit plan...that is if you dare to watch it at all.